So I was able to get 52 days into my 365 days of gesture drawing before it broke me.
It's 3PM, and I'm sitting here in the same situation I have been for the last two weeks.
"Fuck I really don't feel like doing that today..."
Usually I'll spend around 5-7 hours procrastinating on doing 20 minutes of actual work, finally get around to doing it, then doing nothing the rest of the day because it's late and I wanna check in with my girlfriend and then go to sleep.
Now normally I'd just kick my ass into gear with a massive dose of self-hatred, but an interesting variable stumbled into the equation quite by accident.
I'm actually only 51 days into my gesture drawings. A couple of weeks back when I was still working on Sera, I was so excited to finish the teaser, that I couldn't bring myself to do the gesture drawings, and instead just immediately got to work on Sera after breakfast, and spent the entire day working on it without complaint.
And then yesterday, around 5PM, I was still trying to convince myself to do gesture drawing, but instead I started just doodling, and was able to do that no problem.
So as much as I would like to continue studying the figure and how important it may be, it may also be time for a break. Because if the procrastination on doing this exercise is ALSO preventing me from getting all my other work done as well, then its doing more harm than good.
I'll try and continue posting some doodles or something rather frequently, as I continue trying to take what I've learned from gesture drawing for 50 days and apply it to my own stuff. My figures are already looking a bit more lively, though there is still much work to be done. I'm the kind of person who only really learns from bashing their heads against a brick wall until something breaks.
Though whether its the wall or my skull is a coin toss xP
So its back to just sketching, writing, and "normal" art. I think I'll still do one gesture study a week to keep the language in my mind and not fall back into any bad habits, but I wanna keep moving forward.
That first "chapter" of Sera isn't going to make itself, after all xP